Dating, for serious?

So this post has been a long time coming....but I have finally got the time to do it. Sorry it is going to be kind of a venting blog post.
Dating. What is up with that?
Why am I a dating handicap? For serious.
Let's go over my brief dating history.....and remember these are just dates, I have only really "dated" one person...and that did not go well, not at all.

First date ever...(I will change the name to protect the identities of this poor boy)
Samuel, nice, a bit creepy. I am 16 he is 18. Senior Sweethearts dance. Here is the gist of it. He asked me 2 days before the dance, in a manner which I could not say no...he did not tell me when we were meeting for the day date, so 11:00 I am still sleeping and our whole group is waiting for us...He had to work the night of the dance...and he could not drive, no drivers license. So we got to the dance with 1/2 of the dance left. All in all memorable, but not so great.

Through the high school years I went on few dates and they were all to school dances. Prom Jr and senior year. Both fine. The drives home were fun :) Dan, ha ha ha, the best! And Deen really made that really funny the next day at church.

So then after high school I went to the singles ward where I met so really great guys. Never was asked on a date...although I tried to flirt as best I could (which is not good, I tell you not good) But I also worked during the week so I was never able to really go the activities where the real flirting could happen, because I am very much against flirting in church. There was this one dude, that I really, really, really, so many reallys, liked. In fact still do. But he went on his mission and I went to Africa, and he never came back to AF. We are facebook friends, ha ha. So nothing will happen with that. Which makes me sad because he was real live perfect. Anyway, I am rambling.

While I was going to the singles ward I dated a dude from high school. That was all bad, frankly put, he was a lair, in every form.

So I went on a few dates, like 3, with other guys. First dates only....I think that is all I am good for.

There is one stick out date, we had so much fun and didn't want the date to end. But it did have to end, and I went back to Massachusetts and he is now on his mission. He is a really great dude and I really like him. But on a mission...so that is a bummer.

I have been set up on a few blind dates....those did not turn out well. A really sweet woman in my home ward set me up with this guy that she works with. The first date went well. The second, not so much. Cage fighting in a bar. Yep. So, not so good.

Now I am going to the singles ward again, the same one as last time. And I have not gotten a date directly from that. I went on a few dates with an awesome hockey player, who was in the ward, but is not anymore. He is nice, but I am sure he just wants to be friends. Which I am fine with.

So sadly that is pretty much the extent of my dating. Never really to a 3rd date. Everyone tells me that it is the guys. But I am not convinced. There has to be something I am doing wrong! There is something wrong with me. Dating Handicap, that is me. Socially awkward, yep me too. Advice welcome :)

So I am venting my frustration with the whole dating scheme. And announcing my resolve to go on a date...lets start with one a month. Ok maybe every other week. One date every 2 weeks, lets see if I can do that.